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If Drugs are a Crutch, Life is a Broken Leg
I am a woman of substances. I can't seem to work up an ounce of shame or regret about it. In this, I seem to be very unusual. Everyone else seems to think I need to haul so much drug-guilt around that I'd end up never being able to feel high at all were I to actually do this.
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psychaotic, Woman, 45 Years old |
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Appearance
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Top set of dentures |
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Diseases
| What diseases do you have?: |
Hepatitis C, Other |
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| Explain in Detail: |
Herpes, but not symptomatic. |
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No |
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About Me
About Me:
I'm just beginning to be kinda-sorta 'getting over' the end of a relationship happing in late 2006. It involved another woman, someone who pretended to be my friend to get him, and then decided I didn't exist after she'd bagged him. They are still together. And I still can't seem to get attracted to anyone else, despite it being almost four years since, now. Gods, I've got to fix this, and I am trying. Maybe I'd be better off if I just let go of letting go, already. |
Want To Meet:
Anyone with a null symbol where their heart is supposed to be. Or used to be. And people who appreciate drugs, which are wonderfully, perfectly reliable, which deliver exactly what one expects of them. |
Interests:
Digital art, animation, drugs (especially psychedelics and marijuana) industrial music, obscure garage psychedelia, cyberpunk and other good sci-fi, especially that written by women, spending too much goddam time distracted by the internet. |
My Biggest
Problems:
The illegality of my favourite pastime(s). The fact that I never was that great at holding jobs, even before I started altering my consciousness. And the money problems that necessitate me repairing this, and which have made it so at this particular time in my life, I am straight and 'clean' without wanting to be, owing to all my income going to rent. But my worst problem of all: spending too much goddam time distracted by the internet. |
Things I
Hate:
Conservative Republicans, Right Wing Christians and their obsession with being antisexual, and not only being that way but insisting it's part of their own 'agenda' to get everyone else to believe like them, by force of law if need be. Corporatzi with their utter greed, that they'd still plunder the money of banks and people's retirement accounts, even though they've got too much money to know what to do with. The DEA and the ONDCP. Obsession with sports, cars and suchlike, by guys who act like douchebags. Guys who frankly feel females over 25 are with occasional exceptions, discardable and worthless. They all want to screw little girls, whether they are young guys or older men, and so when you're a middle aged woman, you're screwed. (That's the incorrect way of putting it, though...it's the opposite.) |
My
Ex's:
Warren, Mark P., Byron P. (suicided, no great loss; kept threatening to do this if I left him, and I did...although he didn't get around to it for a decade and did it after ANOTHER chick left him, thankfully) John A. and Deek. Only the latter is someone I am still bloody in love with, and sometimes, I don't think that is likely to ever change...since in the past 4 years I can't even get the slightest attraction going to someone else. This is bad. But I can't make it happen by force. And I am not sure what would change it, that I could conceivably do...believe me, I've attempted it a few times, but to no good effect. Sigh. |
People I Hate:
Gegi O. alias Amethyst alias Rose alias Oneeko Chan alias Jayani alias Papillon alias a hundred other goddam things. This person has done more than any other one person in my whole life to fuck it up, although she had a lot of help from me, in retrospect. It was just a really, REALLY bad situation. And if she ever finds this by using a search engine and discovering her name, TOUGH SHIT. I don't care anymore. I'm over trying to get along with that person as if it would make things be all right again. |
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